I'm quite diligent in facilitating Ellie toward her calling. She has a prophetic word spoken to her about dancing. And I'm taking it quite seriously. I want to do everything I can to prepare her in skills to be ready when opportunities do come up in the future. She does nine classes a week. She dances every day from Monday to Friday. She loves it. She doesn't mind missing school if she's sick, but she wouldn't miss any dance classes. She hasn't missed a single class this year. Even today she hurt her foot and she couldn't walk. She didn't want to go to school, but even though she jumped around with one foot, she still went to her dance class. Just as well it's contemporary, most of the actions were just sitting on the floor. I feel quite good about myself, seeing that she does so well in dance and piano(she's playing pieces of grade 4 and she's only 6), and just over the weekend, my husband and I were also delighted and surprised to find out that she has a beautiful voice and she sang us a song "Autumn leaves" all in tune.
Well, the point is, while I'm feeling good about being diligent facilitating Ellie, the Lord's challenging me with my diligence toward my own calling. I also have prophetic words spoken to me toward different things, but as far as training and facilitating toward the calling, I've hardly done any. I know very well, that even if Ellie is gifted in dancing, she has to be properly trained and taught all the skills required in order for the gift to be utilised. But for myself, I seem to just tend to look for opportunities, and when opportunities do come, because of lack of training and skill, I'm not able to catch and maintain those opportunities. There are so many things that I can do, and should be doing, learning, go to trainings, but I just can't be bothered and neglect them with all kinds of excuses. I feel awefully wrong or even a sin to not to support Ellie the best I can, but sort of numb toward myself. So what the Lord told me today is, He loves Ellie just as much as He loves me. If it's a sin neglecting the trainings for Ellie, then it's also a sin neglecting the trainings for myself. In the end, the callings and giftings are all for His kingdom purpose and He requires me to undertake necesary trainings in order to do His job.