To go or not to go: update
I don't think I'll go. Timing's not quite right. But today at church I felt there's a door for me to knock. I knocked, and I could have a peek into what's inside: there's harvest on the other side of the door, crops everywhere fully grown, waiting for the labourors to reap the harvest.
I'm pretty sure I have the calling to go, but I'd like to aim for long term stay. I think I'd sow into some ministries over there for now and wait for the right timing for the whole family to go. Thanks for the prayers!