I've been reading Darlene Zschech's book "The Kiss of Heaven", where she talks about writing your vision and dreams down. She said in her book,"I always sense that whenever I commit the desires in my heart to paper, I literally set them in motion."
And thus I have been thinking about what exactly my dream and calling is.
I remember a while ago when taking my kids to dance lessons at Hillsong, I suddently felt a light walking along the hallway. It was like an angel. A beautiful, heavenly scented being or spirit. I looked, it was Darlene. But the point is, I didn't know it was her. I just felt something very bright and beautiful moving toward me. I think she's so full of the Holy Spirit that she's a living and moving temple of the Holy Spirit. She doesn't have to sing, you just have to see her and you can tell that she's full of the Holy Spirit.
So today at Hillsong women (Sorry I have to mention Hillsong women so much as this is the only time that I can be alone with God undistracted by my children.) I felt sometimes the blessings of heaven are just like heavy clouds hanging over the crowd, it's so close and so low that we can nearly reach it. But there's a thin veil that's holding it. Sometimes it only takes one person's close relation with God, someone that knows the Lord face to face, that knows how to go to the heart of God and break that veil loose, and then the blessings of God will just be pouring down over the whole place. I see people like Rodney Howard-Browne, Benny Hinn ... they all have this mandate. They are the people who will break through the thin veil and bring the Lord's blessing down to everyone that's around them.
So, this is my dream. I want to be a person that knows the Holy Spirit in person. I want to be a living and moving temple of the Holy Spirit, that wherever I go and whatever I do, people around me will just sense the presense of the Holy Spirit. I want to be a person that will break through and bring heaven down to earth. I want to be a channel that will bring the presense of the Holy Spirit into people's lives.
I'm not really a communicator. But I feel my calling is to go through places like desert and to know God in a deeper way, face to face. To know Him, and Him only.