Went to a Hillsong Women meeting this Thursday. It has been a long break, since late November last year. I felt very nurtured. Like my baby, when she seperates from me for a while(like in the daycare), I miss her. And when she comes back to me for a cuddle and nurse, she feels so content and at home. That's exactly how I was feeling in the worship time. I felt the Lord is whispering to me, "I miss you!" And I felt overwhelmed and there was a strong desire in me that wanted to dance. I know there's something about dance in me. Well, I've never had any training at all in dance. Not even one lesson. I am extremely shy about dance. But every time when I'm in the presence of the Holy Spirit, there's this unquenchable deep desire to dance.I don't know where I can release it. Sometimes I even feel a bit jealous toward Ellie, she can dance 4 days a week, trained by different experienced teachers. But I can't find anywhere that I can feel comfortable to do some training in dance.
I have to say there's a strong anointing in Hillsong's worship, especially the women's meetings. I just wish it could be longer. Every time almost just got warmed up, then it's finished. But it's a big church, and it has to have a lot of politics...
Anyway I've registered in the Colour your world women's conference this year. I think it'll be good and I'm looking forward to it.
Although I go to Hillsong just about every day for different reasons, I don't go to church at Hillsong. I have been moving from church to church. Not that I like to do so. I actually would really like to settle down somewhere, but I feel the hand of the Lord has been moving me from place to place. Why? I don't really know. But it doesn't bother me as much now than before. Wherever I go, I try to stay away from the politics of different churches and just enjoy fellowship with the Lord Himself. And I think that's what the Lord want me to do for now.