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Friday, August 12, 2005

Just ranting

Thanks everyone for your congrats! Really appreciated...
The conceiving date suggests it's a girl, but Peter said that he heard a voice while brushing teeth one night, "it's a boy!" I don't really mind boy or girl but Peter's hoping for a boy this time...I can understand(lol). We even got into agreement already for the name of the boy. We had quite some trouble agreeing on names for the three girls before and Kate was without a name for a couple of days after she was born.
Feels quite different than the previous pregnancies though. So far morning sickness is still under control. But then again, it could be just still early.
Lots of craving for food and I'm eating heaps. Two three weeks ago I was having lunch with a friend at college and I was joking that I was craving for this seafood dish in the middle of the night, and she said "you're not pregnant, are you?"
When I went to the prophetic school last week, everyone was seeing visions. Some saw eagles, some saw planes....and all I could see was scallops... big, fat, juicy scallops. Then another day I was craving for oysters... another time tinned little fish and spiral shells...mostly strange seafood this time.

Another term at college finished. Done the exams and assignments...I think I even did ok...amazing. I tend to leave everything to the last minute, and I was thinking of spending a good night studying the last night before the exams. The prophetic literature covers the books of Isaiah, Jeremiah, Ezekiel, Amos etc. so there's quite a bit to study. But then Kate got sick, throwing up big time, fever,etc. She wouldn't leave me alone for one minute.I thought I wouldn't be able to do the exams, but I actually made it... Kate's still not totally well and winges a lot.
I don't know if I can still do college next term. I'd love to, but I don't know if I can handle it. If the morning sickness is still under control in the next two weeks then I'll definately do it. I was pretty bad with morning sickness before with the three girls. I threw up like 10 times a day and was mostly in bed for three months or so. Sometimes I had to go to the hospital to get a drip as I couldn't keep any food down. Hopefully this time it will be different.

Hillsong women was good as usual yesterday. Bobbie Houston was away still...feels like forever. So we still had Lucinda Dooley. She's great though. Sometimes I feel Phil and Lucinda Dooley's got the annointing of Elisha...(hehe)
Lucinda even mentioned this blog yesterday at the meeting....scary. I never know who's reading my blog and sometimes I just don't know what to write any more. I know I have offended people in the past... You know most of the times when I was writing I thought nobody would ever be bothered to read the stuff I write...

The message yesterday was about resurrection life, a new and better way of living. I know it's a message just what I needed, but somehow I don't seem to get it. I felt a bit cloudy. I guess I'm still trying to break through(from the grave to the sky...lol). But Pippa sent me this article the other day which I think captured the spirit of this whole message.(Thanks Pippa) Have a read, it's awesome.

As seen by Susan @ 9:20 AM

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

So the news is...

yeap....you guessed it...
I'm pregnant!
Just found out yesterday. I wasn't quite sure what to think about it for a while, as it's quite a surprise. We were not totally closed toward the idea, but were not planning for this point of time either.
I went to Gloria Jeans this morning to have a bit of journal time. It was quite amazing what I journalled down.
It wasn't my planning, but it was definately God's. He has placed a gift from heaven to entrust to me at this particular time.
It reminds me of Mary, she wasn't particularly planning. She even did all the birth control thing right...(lol) yet she was with child, and she was greatly blessed...
The sense that God has planned for the blessing of this child is so strong....the whole day while I was at college I was just teary for the whole time. His presence was so strong.
I'm still getting used to the idea. It kind of changes a whole lot about me.

As seen by Susan @ 3:56 PM