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Susan @ 1:30 PM
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
Baby dream (II)
Last week I thought I was pregnant again. I was late for over a week and I felt a bit different. Actually I went to the doctor's three times but couldn't find out the result. Then I bought a pregnancy test from the chemist. I was so sure I was pregnant that I started to treat myself real nice, been eating lots of goodies...lol, and I even decided a name. But the result was negative... I couldn't believe it for a while.
Well, the truth is, if I did get pregnant, I wasn't ready for it. I didn't plan for it, and I won't cope very well. The result was actually a "whew!" ... We thought we're done. I've had three beautiful girls, and that's not too bad.
But strangely, after that false excitement and then the "whew!", I started to have a little bubbling in my heart. I start to want to be pregnant again. Actually, both my husband and I hope to have twin boys next time. hehehe...it would be really fun, wouldn't it?
I've always thought we can't afford to have more children. But apparently, the government has changed the policy for a while, and I've just known it yesterday! Now with every new born baby the government will give 5000 dollars, and if I have twins, it would be 10,000 dollars! Strange timing for me to know that, huh?
I really don't mind if it's another girl, it's the boys that I need to work my way to. God knows I couldn't handle boys before so He gave me three girls, and I'm so grateful for that.
I think I might plan this time. After the house is totally finished and we're all settled, maybe some time next year, we might do it again.
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